There’s a reason I don’t make resolutions, I know that for the most part I most likely won’t bother keeping them. My attention can also kind of shift pretty quickly onto different things with a lot of energy. So basically, I ended up managing to forget about how passionate I was about doing all of this stuff that I listed down here.

Actually the main reason I managed to remember about it was because I’d posted all 38 (I’m highly ambitious!) goals onto the side of this webpage, and I want to take them down now. Not because I haven’t done them all, or I’m consigned to failure, on the contrary I’ve somehow managed to do a few of those things, and of those few, I know at least one of them was a massively important milestone in my life. I want to take them down because while I’d still like to do some of those things, I just don’t think that that list completely reflects where I’m at right now.

It’s hard to describe but, I feel like living this life, I’ve already lived a few. Not in terms of the depth of my experiences perhaps, but in how I feel, how people relate to me, and how I relate to myself and my memories. I know that at the core of it, It’s just been me as the same continuous person, but I’ve changed so much that when I look at old pictures of myself it really does feel like I’m looking at a past life or something. I know, like I said its a really hard feeling to describe. I can’t be the same person I was before, because I can’t go back to being that limited.

I like to think that I’m more than who I was, more of who I have the potential to become.

So little random self-reflection out of the way, what the hell did I actually do in that list?

2. Eat a piece of fruit everyday for at least a month

I ate so many bananas last year I felt like a monkey

4. Take a kick boxing class

I love kickboxing! Once uni starts again I’m gonna become a member since I’ll actually be able to commit to some regular classes. I also have really good form! Thank you childhood karate!

5. Take a yoga class

I’m actually pretty good at it and vinyasa yoga can actually be a damn good workout in its own way. You start feeling your body a lot more. I can do the wheel! But the crane….wth how do you do that!?

11. Get a job I enjoy during uni for some pocket money

So I got a Christmas casual job over the break and I think they’ll keep me on, aside from the drastic change in mood that the presence of a particular manager has on the whole floor, its pretty fun! Well, when I’m working with my friends anyway.

12. Buy myself at least one thing every month

I know I’ve definitely been doing this with food… does that count? I’ve actually started slowly revamping my wardrobe, and i’m feeling sexy!

19. Exercise for four days a week for at least a month

24. Vacuum the house once a month

37. Come out to my parents

Out of everything I had on the list, this is the most important one that I did.